wanting2live

Today was a fairly good day.  My youngest son had a swim meet so I got off to a good start with my breakfast, but didn’t get home until after 2:00.  Normally by then  I should have had a snack around 10am, lunch at noon, and then when I got home it was about time for the afternoon snack.  I had some string cheese at the pool and a can of my new fav Diet Rite tangerine, but didn’t really have the opportunity for much else.  Needless to say when I got home Iwas ready to eat the paint off the walls.  I ate 2 cold  fat free hotdogs (weird, I know, but I like them that way), then my sunburn took over and I crashed for a nap until after 4:30.  I grilled some chicken breasts for supper, and cut up some canteloupe for supper, though I just had the chicken breast and a HUGE glass of water.  I think I was still dry after being out in the sun all day lol.  Anyways, I am feeling somewhat restless tonight and find myself thinking about what I can eat.  I made some salsa after supper for the boys and indulged a little, but was able to stop after one small bowl full.  I can’t tell, but I think this diet may be getting a little easier.   If the scale would budge a little more, it would help the motivation.  But nonetheless I am still going to stick with it.  I keep thinking about how good I might feel by Christmas, or even sooner and I am not ready to give up yet :)  To those of you who commented on my first blog entry - thank you!  Your comments meant alot to me.  I want to be sure to say that I am not looking for pity from anyone.  Everyone has trials in their lives and unless you are living it, you can’t compare yours to another’s.  It was just kind of cathartic to get it all out there so I could move forward.